Amor esquizofrênico

Amar o Brasil é esquizofrenia,

Mas uma doença 

que não pretendo buscar a cura

A one way friendship

You could be proud of yourself to treat badly an enemy, 

an unknown person that tried to hurt you

But a friend?

You should be ashamed of yourself

Of course,

It is always possible that the friendship just existed from my side

A one way friendship

Singled Heart: Maja part 2

There are several things in this world that I do not understand, and I may as well try. One is why people is so attached to physical appearance, how the others look like, not what they feel, what they think, what they prize. That would explain why the media is so powerful, even keeping lies about everything, aids is the core of a good business, people are so worried the way they dress, they act, not the ideas they believe; the legendary story of Jesus and the thieves is a classic; the other is the classic "The beast and the beauty". That explains why the plastic surgery industry is so powerful and lucrative. To go through a surgery because you need is one thing, face the knife for vanity is another, for me, it makes no sense; by no means I claim I am different, I am better. In an episode, in the American culture, what nowadays would be considered prejudice, unethical, was when the government, if I am not making mistake, supported a project for selecting people with "good gene", for a genetic pool for the future, the selection was based on physical appearance, the way people looked like, sometimes it makes me wonder what about if human could choose for instance how their offspring would look like, the same way they can choose the name. In all that I know, in all that human could choose, it was a recipe of disaster. I am not religious, but sometimes I agree with religious, let God makes its work. The second thing about people that makes it angry is the extreme wish to control their destiny, every single details. I agree that you should have some control on how many kids you have, how much you expend per month, but most of the time, the choices are stupid, meaningless, selfish, careless with the other's feeling, opinions and so on.

Wisdom or constrained evolution?

A good snake knows it does have legs

A good leopard knows it is fast, but it is fragile

A good bird knows it can fly, but it cannot run

In biology, it is called constrained evolution

In  our society, it is called wisdom

Complement 

There is no pain that comes from
outside

that's what I feel right now

Do you know when you feel lost

sad

when the world does not give a damn for what you say

you feel that all you have done was a mistake

you feel alone, needing attention

your work no longer make sense to you

you feel small, afraid,

lost

that's what I feel right now. 

Singled Heart: Maja

Part 1:

La ragazza del treno, I have decided to look for this book for buying it in the airport, it has been a while that I have heard about this book, in TV. In general, I never buy stuff under aids, I hate aids. I think that for what is good there is no need for advertisements, of course, for every rule likely there are exceptions. It really freaks me out how airport is a pain in the ass, flights are always late, things are so expensive, a single meal can cost you a lot, not to mention all those controls that make me angry, as so that I prefer something else, such as bus or train. Of course, I understand they must be sure that no terrorist is trying something funny, but it really makes our lives a nightmare. For instance, on my back, they have lost my luggage, and it is unbelievable how shit they are regarding this matter, the company does not give a damn, the airport talk to you whenever they please, and you stay without your things that are important for you. As I had to stand on this line, waiting for someone, already one hour late, to appear, then I can finally follow my way, dead or my final trip aim. Finally someone comes out of the blue and start letting us in, I am one of the last in the line, I was the first, but since I try to be polite, as soon as someone appeared, everyone comes like ants looking for sugar and I have lost sight of my position trying to be polite. I believe that stressed people in this world, we already have enough, I try to compensate everything, such as, selfish people we have a lot, eccentric people we have a lot. The biggest problem, disgusting thing about us, is thinking that the universe goes around us, our lives is so important that if we had an spotlight just for us, we certainly would use it. Such as, nowadays, the internet is making possible for people to show up easily, once it was called the fire of the vanities, bearing in mind we try to show all, from small and meaningless things to bigger ones. It is no longer a problem to publish, now it is to be heard.

Penumbra

Maja

Your gestures deceives me

You eyes retrieve me

You existence achieves me

Your time, please, believe me

Feel you, want you, chase you

Existence, presence, all or nothing

Time, space, sun, rain, earth, space,

Love, hate, trust, thirst

first, love, sight

I pay, I say, I pray, I prey that would be okay, say.  

Like a snake calling its prey

Like a dog

I found myself lost in the Horizon

A chicken going around and around

My brain picture me having the pleasure of pleasure

You dance in my head

Like a snake calling its prey

You sing for me, seeking in my soul

What I chase to hide 

La ragazza del treno: no riesco a non pensare

"Quando vedo degli abiti ridotti a brandelli, 

una maglietta sporca o una scarpa spaiata, 

no riesco a non pensare all'altra scarpa e ai piedi che la calzavano"

Stupidity and Intelligence

Stupidity and Intelligence

can easily be wrongly identified

e.g. when you decide to neglect someone 

that is not good enough for you

A systems biology like approach to explain a failure or a systems biology like approach to easy your pain

The worse thing that can happen to someone is liking someone and fail to accomplish what your hopes take you to. A broken heart is quite difficult, specially if it has been happening for quite a while. What can be a quite pain is the fact that you are so down that you talk to someone, and certainly that person is not going to loss the opportunity to tell you what to do. They advise how you should have handled the problem, e.g. you should not tell her you feelings, you should not go so fast, you should have waited, you shouldn't have waited. What piece me off the most is that the comments are vague, personal, and limited; as vague as prediction from people that read cards. Some would take them as granted, once when you fail, you fail. At least in my reality, a girl's no is no, there is no coming back. So what lasts to us is either cry until no tear is left or take an active position, making science of it! Einstein once said that theory is when you know all, but nothing works; experiment is when all works, but no one understand a thing. Herein we are in the theory domain.

Poetry&Medicine

Medicine and poetry is

a lots like

medicine seeks for easing the pain of

somebody else by using drugs

poetry your own

by making poems

é como se

Denise

A broken heart

The worst of a broken heart is not the

failure itself to succeed with the 

person you believe to like

but rather the continuous loss of hope

 you experience every time it happens,

for an unknown period of time

if you do not pay attention

that can be your downfall